MYE

MYE = Mid Year Examination

Tomorrow is the official start of my mid year examination.

Let me see, from memory -because i'm too lazy to take the time table-, i'll type out my schedule.

The coming week:

Mon - English paper 1/CLB MT paper.

Tues - Social Studies

Wed - Geography

Fri - Math paper 1

The next week:

Mon - officially forgotten.

Tues - officially forgotten.

Wed - officially forgotten.

Thurs - Science paper 1, i think.

Fri - FNN paper.

& and that's it.

Oral, the tues after the 2 weeks.

See, how "prepared" i am already.

I'm still blogging now, about it.

Frankly, I haven't start revising yet. I know, I'm going to.............

Right, I won't. I work well under pressure. Plus, if i start revising a month earlier, i'll probably forgot everything i revised on, I know, i think i've tried that already.

Wish me luck!

Ps// Fazlyn, Adrian's buried 2 steps away from Richard's. I wrote on the wall, to remember the place as well.

Adrian, rest in peace.

It’s horrible to see the grim reaper take a life right before your eyes

I'll miss you, terribly.

Quiz-es, eh?

I just read Shirley's blog, she tagged me to do this.

7 facts/quirks about myself.

1. I'm physically and mentally weird, i think i'm from another time
where my weirdness is actually normal.

2. I simply love drama series. Korean, Japanese, and Taiwanese dramas, I
simply adore them.

3. Mineral water pawns fizzy drinks, anytime.

4. Aren't friends the best thing ever, apart from family and life?

5. Pink is the cutest colour, isn't it?

6. I love animals, especially those that can be domesticated to be
pets at households. Dogs?

7. I'm almost interested in everything, but for some, the time my interest
is staying aroused is quite limited. For some...

And I saw another quiz in her post, so i decided to do it as well.

QUIZ #2:

01. If you had a
chance to go out with the person you like and your favourite celebrity for the
whole day(separately), what would you do?

The
person i like? Go to some place I know we'll both enjoy, then. THE LIBRARY!
haha, right. Some themeparks or malls or something.
Celebrity: I don't know, go to some place secluded. I don't want to keep
running from paparazzi, you know.

02. How do you feel now?

Sleepy, it's 11.20pm now, and yes i know i
should go to bed now.

03. If you can fulfil one wish , what would
it be?

Be a photographer.

04. Who are you thankful to?

Fazlyn, Shirley, Mink, Kristen, Ryan, my family(brother&parents),
god.

05. Important wishes for now?

My mother to be healthy and my brother to come back from Taiwan,
safe.

06. If you can turn something in the past back , what would
it be?

Wash my face regularly and never stop being active,
duh.

07.What are your main priorities now?

to pass my O level for this year, as a top student again.
Hopefully.

08.What makes you happy?

Getting
A1s and hanging out with people.

09.What do you wanna change in
you?

All the things i'm inferior to, my fears, the paranoid
thoughts in my mind that always succeeded in hindering the progress of my
growth.

10. What song can represent your feelings now..?

Time Machine by The click five

11.What type
of person you hate most?

Super hypocrites; tells you they
like you but tells others the converse.

12. Are there anything
you wish to confess now?

I should really go to sleep now,
huh?

13. What is your definition of a dream house?

A large pool indoors - so that swimming naked is allowed - and big rooms
all with functioning air-cons. Big furnitures, with my future lovely boyfriend
lying on the water bed - I have an affair with - waiting for me to lie down
beside him.

*have an affair with not referring
to the literal meaning. I mean, i'm in love with the bed.

14. Who will you go to when you are feeling low one day?

Those I'm thankful to, actually. However, I think most probably,
Fazlyn.

15.What you hope to achieve?

To save
a reasonable amount of money so that i can bathe in money - literally.

16. What age do you wish to marry?

25 - 30

17.What do you regret most in your life?

Not
bothering to actually really study at home.

18.How many people
made you angry for the past few days?

1 to 2, i
think.

19. What would you do if you have done something terribly
wrong to your close friend?

Make it up to her, through many
ways I can.

20. Would you prefer to hang out with your
boyfriend/girlfriend or your friends?

Friends, because it's
inclusive of boyFRIENDs.

Right then, the point of my post.

My mother is hospitalized, and i was in the hospital for half of the day today, accompanying my mother. Really an interesting place - the hospital.

I took pictures, as usual. I'll post them up soon. I confess, i'm really tired right now. I want to sleep and jog tomorrow morning. I NEED TO LOSE WEIGHT.

Fnn.. again&my confession

I'm in the computer lab doing Fnn again. I'm stuck at the page 6 of my research, and i don't think i'll be able to add more just by staring at it. Close, open, close, open.

Well, I'm feeling a little joyful today, or maybe i'm just high, anyway, back to my point, I have split personality.

At home, i'm this rowdy person that's wrecking havoc among the peaceful inhabitants in my house. Number one victim, my big brother (when he's home), then comes "Ate" bernadette (my friends know who), then my parents, then finally, my pets. (Enter evil laughter here).

Where as, in school, i'm this reserved girl. I don't noise about, I stay in a corner watching others noise about and indulge in that comedic act they're portraying. I listen to teachers and try to stay out of trouble all the time. I'm quiet and shy. Yes, i am.

See, the difference?

No?

You're blind!

Look, i'll put it in bullet point, for YOU to understand clearly.
READ properly.

In school,

• Reserved
• Quiet
• Shy

At home,

• Rowdy
• Noisy
• Annoying
• Irritating

Now do you see?

GOOD!

Well, that's pretty much my confession. Guess what? I thought of this before i fell asleep, the reason why i had the time to think about blogging is because i'm insomniac. OH! another confession!

I can't sleep easily, unlike others. I have to toss and turn on my bed before i fall asleep, and the tossing and turning part usually take 1 hour. So basically, if i want to sleep at 11pm, i have to be lying on my bed by 10pm.

I hate being insomniac. I know some like, but i'm pretty sure there's a majority that don't. I think the doctors have created a cure for insomniac, right? I'm not sure, actually. If it's not true, take it that i'm bullshit-ing here.

**

I'm not sure if i have any readers huh? No comments, so i don't think i have any, 'cept my friends, who maybe visit my blog once every year. Sheesh, i'll postpone blogging! See, punishment! ...punishment? For who? No one even comes here, loser..

Let's all do the laughing Yoga, Hoho Hahaha (i'm not making this up)

Fnn

It's such a torture to come to school on wednesday and friday, and other days with Fnn in it.

I know, i'm the one who chose Fnn in the first place so if i want to blame anyone, blame myself. However, I don't want to blame myself! I want to blame anyone, can? Why can't I?

Ah, never mind, i'll just rant it out here.

FNN is boring & I hate the coursework part.

Thank you.

And yes, i'm typing this one during my FNN period.

A birthday celebration

Yesterday, friday 18 april'08, it was my form teacher's birthday, Miss ho, and well the class made use of the class fund and celebrated her birthday.

Here are the pictures before i go ranting on about it.

Erna&Miss Ho ^

Mathi ^

Right, the rest are the class photos and food and covers of pizzas'&cakes.
Well, it's pretty wicked isn't it?

I said, to some,
"I think whoever is a teacher of this kind of class is really lucky."
They nod, and agree with me.
"If i'm a teacher of this kind of class i'll tell them when my birthday is....,"
I think they laugh a little.
"..and on every month there's an occasion to celebrate about (for me)."
They laugh.

Ain added, "January, i said my first word. February, i was born that month. March, ...."
Yea, so every month, "my students" will celebrate something for me. Haha
The conversations were a little bit altered because i can't remember it specifically.

Anyway, i was kidding about it of course.

The celebration was a success, in my opinion, except that the malay boys that had to go to the mosque weren't present. That's why there is so little boys in the "only boys" pictures. They did save enough cake and pizza for them. So no worries.

Right then.

I had Food and Nutrition remedial afterwards.
Had to stay in the computer lab for 3 hours. I kind of lost track after 1 hour.
So, of course, I went on chattery after.
Sorry fazlyn, who was sitting beside me at that time.

Well, let's see. I told her that bangladash people should be ecstatic.
Why? because of these points.

a) Everyone know their "group name", a.k.a Bangladashi/Bangladash.
b) When they go in a public transport, and if they race their arms, people will leave, giving away free seats for them. Such respect huh?
c) They work overseas. You see, they're indians and they work in Singapore, not India. Where as, singaporeans work in Singapore, still in singapore. See! See the difference?

Now, don't you think Indians should be ecstatic about their status here? Plus, they are quite popular aren't they? Everyone knows them.

Haha, makes sense?
It doesn't?
Well, i don't always makes sense.

Fnn

I'm still not into this.
Everything always distract me during this time.
And yet, i'm intending to score an A1 on this.
Quite the impossible, much?

(add weird grunts and noises here)

I'm a mugger

First i'll start with, my lovely pictures! I don't mean act-cute pictures of me or pictures of me and friends. I mean pictures! get it?

Right then. All taken with my 2 megapixel camera phone so i repeat, it will not be that professionally good. To you, it might even look 'sucky'.

O levels, I'm not getting any urge to study for it YET. Why's that? Because i always slack till the last minute, hence, i'm a mugger. Or maybe something like that.

I've been jogging every day night now, because of two reasons, a) I want to do well for my 2.4km. I don't want to disappoint myself further, since i tend to have high expectations of myself. b) I want to lose weight, NOW; immediately be thin! But i don't really do diets that well, I like to run sometimes AND I like to eat foods, all sorts. So for 2 months, i'm hoping to lose at least 5kg, since I don't exactly run 3 rounds every night, just one full round of the track 'connector' in sembawang.
*One full round = half from down the slope till the end and the other half end till up the slope. The rest after and before, i'm resting or doing warm ups.

I'm definitely going for poly, and not JC and probably not private school either since i'm not that well-off. I found out that both Ngee Ann and Singapore Poly has photography in it, ah.. such a tough decision.. not .. Singapore poly, it is. (Ngee Ann, i don't like that place, looks so destroyed.. it is going through renovations.. the last time i saw it at least..)

***

I think i judge things too fast sometimes. Yes, i know i said that i don't judge .. people, but do take note, i typed things.

Why i think that way? Well, i do. Especially in the library.

I JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER, literally.

When i want to borrow a book to read from the library, I don't take a book out of the shelf and read the summary then decide whether i want it or not. I, however, do take a book out of the shelf and look at the cover and if it looks nice and eye-catching to me, I'll take the time and read the summary. The difference between the two is, the cover of the book must be able to attract my attention FIRST.

I don't know if others do that, but i do know of one that does. My best friend, fazlyn. Well, actually she and I have a lot of habits in common. HABITS, not our personality or attitudes.

That's what usually happen when i'm borrowing a book out of the library.

You know how library have sensors right? At the exit/entrance of the library?
I'm extremely indimidated by that. I had loads of experience where the sensor actually triggered the alarm and I was the only one that entered the place. Talk about the people that stared when that happened, ugh.

Lots of thoughts immediately went to my head. "They're gonna think i shoplifted! AH!!" "I'm going to be jailed for something I DIDN'T DO! AAAAAH!!!!" " I'm innocent! AHHH!!" "BLOODY SENSORS!! AAAAHH!!"

Not once did i think about what i would say if one did come to me to check my bag. I don't keep receipts, so i would be done for, and they'll think i stole it!

Yeah, but none of them really came to me. Luckily, or i would have pissed my skirt there and then.

See, i have perfectly good reason to be intimidated by those sensors. (:

It takes two hands to clap.

I'm not satisfied!

I was running on my treadmill just now - yes, i had one - and well it sort of broke. No, it isn't because of my weight although i think i'm (words size got too small to be seen by the naked eye so this replaced it). The treadmill was initially broken, but not to the state it is in now, and well I just made do with it and ran near the end of it. I thought everything would be fine until, *crack crack*, the floor supporting the conveyor belt - i'm running on - dropped and it felt so loose and scary. I had dozens of thoughts going in my mind, like what if the conveyor belt suddenly snaps and cuts me into two? or what if the conveyor belt suddenly snaps and wrapped itself around me causing me to lose balance and i'll end up falling to the ground, hitting my head first which causes me to die? Yes, i'm paranoid, my friends and family have said that. I can't help it, my train of thought immediately hops on to the express way and travel the thoughts until i reach my death and sometimes after-death, when such "scary" things occur.

I'm unique that way! Stop laughing, you mongoloids! You all should think like me, then we'd be so prepared for any disaster! ... suit yourself. (sticks out tongue)

Right, in my previous post i said, i'll post if something interesting occurred right? Well, this is sort of interesting.

Oh yes, my father officially took MY cpu to my family's maid agency. He needed it, so in repayment, my parents bought me and my brother a new cpu (windows vista, i think) each. I think it's really great because i'm sick of the old cpu, that's so so so so .................. so so old. It's old to me!

Oh yes, back to the title topic. I'm not satisfied, why? because i don't think i've run my daily 2.4km. Egh, it's irritating because i think my body never gave out enough sweat to make me think i've exercised for the day. Ugh! And i hate going down to run instead because a)it's an up and down track! Though it's good, but its up and down hills are sort of really high/steep. b)I'll lose my mood once i reached downstairs because my low self-esteem will kick in and stab me in the back, it'll force my body to go back upstairs and crawl under my bed.

Anyway, i have no choice, i have to run downstairs for tomorrow. I suppose i should make sure i run when there are still people running, so i won't feel alone and scared because at night, the bangalahs comes out! AAAAAAAAHHHHHH! the horror.

It's a long post, READ IT ALL & COMMENT KAY? plsss? (:


**i'm not racist okay? I don't mean offence when i said the "bangalahs comes out". I just am freaked out at night though, when i run and see them sitting there, sometimes staring at something i don't know. their eyes are open so i think they're staring at something because the mouth are closed. They can't possibly telepathy-ing right? Idk too!

****yes, i'm not exactly on the slim side, but i'm not extremely over to the plum side YET. I'm making sure i don't reach the YET part though. (:

haha

I've run out of constructive titles for my posts, so i ended up with just a 'haha'. Clever, right!
the loser's back...

Anyway, my left eye is swollen. Well, not the same as my right eye last year, so i can still go to school tomorrow. The doctor prescribed some eye drops and eye ointment for my eye. eye eye eye. .. well, it's getting better already so i'm totally fine.

What did i want to post about?
Oh yes, I've finally started to pack my awesome lovely cute 'prettaye sexaye' beautiful brown bag. Yes, i know i don't like brown so much but i never said i hate it. Though, pink colour would be nicer. It's a handbag, or shoulder bag? I don't know what they call it. It's not that big or small but just nice, well i find it nice at least. Some i suppose find it too small to use for school and some practically didn't care. :D Luckily, there's still some that care. (:

The next post, the post after this, will probably be done the next weekend because I don't know if i'll be free to post meaningless things. School's giving us, sec 5 students, lots of remedial and work. We, students, usually go home as late as 6. So practically, we spent our entire day in the school, and guess what? Tomorrow is one of the two most longest day ever! Well, at least all the remedial slot has been taken unlike Wednesday! ugh, I have to wait an hour, at least, before MY remedial start on Wednesday.

But if ever, there's something interesting that happened to me, i'm pretty sure i'll post a post about it immediately or at least when i can. (:

Till' next weekend, maybe.

yeay, a second post for the day

This is the second post for the day, (: how about that? Isn't that great?
loser..

Well, I'm very happy to say, it was all just an infatuation. I'm done, over and finished with it. I can now happily type out that I can focus on my studies. (: HAHAHAHA

I can kiss 'love,infatuations' aside! Happy ~ ;D

Internet dating

I'm not really into internet dating, making friends over the internet - I don't mind - but when it comes to dating, I don't like it. I like something real, and obviously internet dating isn't real unless you meet the man himself.

However, I did have my fair share of internet dating (not that i'm over 30 plus now, cause that's how i make it sound like) and well, it was really nerve-wrecking. To make sure you look great on your "sort of" first date, and to suddenly confess all the things you've been hiding so that he won't have that look of disappointment on his face (well, sort of won't have).

I don't know but I worry for those who do internet dating. They think they know the person but actually they don't. Well, some people that is, because apparently some people - like me - do tell the actual facts of themselves (some that weren't asked can stay hidden of course) and those "honest" people over the internet are a minority.

I actually bothered to look for cartoons to illustrate my point. That internet dating, isn't all that good.

Here's some:



See, you never really know how old is the person you're dating. Either he's too young or too old.

And if you actually turned to internet dating because you don't want to meet anyone superficial, but i'm telling you right now, you're wrong. There's still that numerous amount of people who are STILL superficial even in the internet dating 'world'. Why do you think they ask for pictures? To see how "pretty"/"handsome" you are. Obvious isn't it? If there are other reasons, please enhance this narrow thought of mind then. (:

Here's a picture to show you what i really mean:



Get it now? Good

Hence, internet dating isn't really that good because you won't know exactly whether you're talking to a "real" person or not.

I know offline dating could be hard for some, but i never said you can't make friends over the internet (just as friends) and meet them in real life, then you control it from there. If you want it to go further or not. Don't give out any very crucial details of yours till your gut trusts the people as well. And everyone, try not to be very superficial, first impressions are important but after that, it's the personality and characteristics that is most important.

This is not a sexist post, even though this post is mostly talking to the ladies, guys do take note of this too.

Unpredictable

When one's desire to get hitch stops because that one finally realizes what should come first, something comes along and gets that one back onto that 'desire-train'.

It's really awful yet somewhat lovely. However, nothing definitely should be expected from out of this because it's unpredictable. What is? Life.

You don't know when you'll die because sometimes death just comes knocking on your door. So THAT, is the unpredictable part of life? NO! hell no! The unpredictable thing about life is life itself. You probably can plan out your future and some probably can predict it, but no one can actually really drive their life to the correct path without any mishaps or obstacles or whatnot. Life's path has a lot of clutters here and there. Awful, isn't it?

And right now, I'm currently being disturbed by one of THOSE obstacles. That irritating obstacle that causes your legs to turn jelly, your stomach to be filled with butterflies and your heat to be beating fast and slow at the same time.

Yes, that obstacle. It's not that it sucks ass or anything but it's just that I've finally decided to work for my O levels this year, and great, it had to block my path NOW. Why now? When I've finally managed to eliminate some of the distractions? Ugh.. Life is terribly unpredictable.

Like just two days ago or maybe many more days before, I said he didn't have any impact on me. 'Na-ta, nothing, zip, empty, zero' Oh, that's certainly such a contradiction, since right now there seem to be a little something there, after all.

I don't know if it'll grow any bigger, but I'm pretty sure this is not the one I really am waiting for. Or maybe i should not use 'pretty sure' just yet.

I'm not sure about anything regarding that matter though. I'm both engrossed in the whole thing and yet disturbed.

If you gave me a choice to choose between Him and YJ, I think i'd still choose the latter but my heart is indeed wavering. Maybe if he just .. treat me like a friend, I'd like to know what would be the outcome.