Promises

I terribly dislike it when one says this but do the other. Isn't it so infuriating?

Imagine this scenario,

Your prom starts tomorrow, you've told all your friends you have a dress ready so you don't have to buy for it anymore, so they don't worry.

Apparently, the dress you thought you'll have wasn't bought. The person actually promised you that she'll buy a dress for you, so you trust her whole-heartedly and not worry about you still not having anything to wear even on the last day.

Imagine that, isn't it infuriating?

Well, if it isn't to you, it is to me. If you're thinking it's just me being terribly petty and unreasonable, then think what you want.

Honestly, i'm incensed right now because I could have gone for a jog earlier but no my parents said that they'll go jogging with me, so it means I'll wait for them to come back. They did come back but shortly after ,they decide to go to the bank, and they still said they'll jog after they come back.

Guess what?

My mother chose not to because she's tired, i understand. I asked my father, and what? He wanted to watch this damn show first, so i probed again, to see if i can go jogging with him after. Apparently, i'm just bad-timing today because my mother answered me when i asked my father the second question. She said, "I have driving lesson early tomorrow, that's why."

God damn it! Why didn't you say so when you knew already! Why couldn't they let me down then already, before they went to the bank, so that I can still run. It was 8pm then. Now, it's already 20 min to 10pm. You think i'll still dare to go down and run by that track? When it's all dark and creepy? ALONE? Like hell i will!

I understand that we'll be off early tomorrow, yes i do. I just dislike the fact that my father won't fucking answer me properly. Why not straight away say, "I'm tired luh, i don't want to jog okay?" or "Tomorrow must wake up early, so don't want already". UGH!

I may sound petty right now, and probably unreasonable, but I cannot help it. I don't like being led on! I am a straight-forward person, so don't delay and just drop that bomb of an answer on me.

I haven't gone jogging for some time now because of the exam period, so in me, there's this blend of feelings - disappointment and anger.

I'm getting fatter by the minute!

I think I weigh 999 kg now! Worse than that 200 pounds beauty girl. If i sat on a human being, it'll immediately fall to the ground, crushed with all of its guts coming out of it's mouth and anus, and the only thing i'll be able to say as an apology is, "oops".

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Right, another promise made to me by my mother this time.

We're going to SPCA tomorrow to adopt a dog, if possible.

I'm already doubting this, but i bet tomorrow i'll be disappointed. Hopefully it'll be the opposite, but i'm not putting much hope into it. Though i know i will be terribly disappointed.