only 2 more days

There's only 2 days left before the school holidays ending this term starts. I don't think I can type out this elated feeling I have now just thinking about it. Yes, I dislike school because people in that school have hurt me deeply and I horribly want the time to go faster.

However, in contrast, I also want the time to go slower so that I can enjoy this year with Bernadette(my house's maid). Her contract ends next year April. NOT EVEN PASSING MY BIRTHDAY!!!! UGH!!!

When I get ignored by that some people I don't wish to talk about, I get hurt inside though I kept covering it up inside me telling myself it's fucking nothing. I think when somebody hurts me as bad as it was last Friday, I think I'll cry a motherfucking load of tears again. Unfortunately for me, no one really will understand the fact that I AM A FUCKING SENSITIVE GIRL. So, they go ahead and stab deeper seeing as the blood oozing out of my heart is oblivious to them. I'm just counting down the days till O level starts, then I'm sure to not talk much in school because I'll totally occupy my brain, myself with revisions.

UGH! It still hurts inside. Honestly, I have no idea what i came off as for people to treat me like this. Then again, there could have been some badmouthing that took place but I really shouldn't care. The more I care, the more it'll come back and spit at me on the face.



I really should try and make new friends, better ones that bothers to find my point of view as well.