I didn't go to school today

It's a blend of bits of 'pontang' and 'giddy-ness'. I know I could still go to school but I took my slight giddy-ness to another level instead of getting up. I'm tired and I badly want to sleep. I'm insomniac so it's really hard for me to get to sleep at night, no matter how early I decide to lie on my bed.

Anyway, since I didn't go to school today, I'm bored! Hence I'll do a post on the craziest things I want done. Though it keeps changing as time passes.

Craziest things I want done

1. Actually be a witness to someone's accident/suicidal case. (I
   know, it's mental of me isn't it?)
2. Donate Blood Done!
3. Get operated on. (Which will actually happen since I'm a woman,
   I'll get pregnant and they'll have to operate on me, right?)
4. Stay in a hospital.
5. See an actual spiritual being. (If I'm brave enough)

Okay, that's pretty much it. Like I said, it changes as time passes by. So in the future, it might get more.

Blood donation

YES! I donated blood! One of the craziest things I want to do is actually done and slashed. I never blogged about the craziest things I want done because I think they're really freaky and normal people can't take it. Maybe I'll blog about it either at the end of this post (if i survive) or in another post.

Yeah, back to the point, I donated blood! (:

I was blabbering nonsense and repeating myself as the time to get injected with anesthetic came. I'm a tad bit terrified of injections, you see.

Turns out the anesthetic injection did feel like an ant bite! Problem is there was too many ants. Sheesh.

Everything is fine though, except for the fact I almost fainted inside the MRT train on the way to Sembawang. I had no choice but to sit on the floor (I was standing). Feeling dizzy and a little 'puke-y', I sat down on the nearest seat, which was the floor in my situation. My vision was totally fogging up, for those that knows the "sharp" tool in photoshop, my vision was being sharpened! And for those that don't, try pressing your eyes hard, as if you're poking them BUT don't press them too hard till you cause blood to gush out, anyway, that's the vision that I had, the small white squares or something. Try try!

I should really get to sleep because I'm all lethargic and giddy.

P/s: I'm planning to go for blood donation in the next 3 months again, which would be after 20 august 2008. Want to come? Definitely those keen on doing deeds will come right? Then again, pfft.

New skin for my blog

I made(underlined and bold) this new PINK skin for my blog because I tire of things easily. Depending on the things, obviously. Yes, no kidding, I made this blogskin. Don't forget I was once a blogskin-ner, the one that kept making new blogskins for people to download even if I had no inspiration and even if my photoshop skills sucked badly.

Well, that was then. See how much I've improved? ...not much really..

Anyway, tomorrow is the O level Mother Tongue paper and fortunately for me, I don't have to take it. No it's not because I took my paper the year before, but because I am taking .... um..... Chinese Language Basic (otherwise known as CLB for Completely Lost Beanbags, beanbags meaning us okay I made that up). The CLB paper would be during my official O level papers. So when everybody's done with their MT, I'm there doing it.

I haven't really got much to blog about. To put it simply, my life is utterly boring. I was thinking of creating a short sob story for people to read but for that, I have no inspiration at all, so if I forced myself to create one, it will be a sob story indeed. If you get what I mean......oh... you don't? ah, never mind.

Great news! I managed to persuade my parents to pay for my library fine - which is now $50.50 - but they're procrastinating. I couldn't believe that they, my parents, would actually procrastinate, but I suppose that explains my procrastinating genes. Question answered!

Actually, given a choice, I would never ask my parents for the money to pay for it but because I reserved this blood and chocolate book and I horribly want to read it, so I asked them to pay for me. I only have like 10 bucks right now. I'm not much of a saver.

I know, there's the movie blood and chocolate but I wikipedia-ed it and the plot of the movie is almost completely different from the novel. So now, I'm convinced that the novel is way better than the movie and given my imagination, it's definitely going to be better than the movie.

Hopefully I'll be able to pay for the fine as soon as possible. Fingers crossed!

Thank you God.

My mother survived the operation and I'm really glad about that. (:

Moody

I've been moody these few days.

I got like a lot of reasons as to why. I want to tell my friends but it's like I don't know how they'll react to it so I dare not. I mean, what if I bring out a negative attitude out of them? Won't I feel more low than I already am?

I don't know.

Sometimes, I suppose I just wanted life to be easier.

Scars disappear don't they? My tear glands' empty.

Intensive MT; yuki

Unfortunately I don't have Intensive MT, so I'm stuck doing other things other than doing my MT. Sometimes, I suppose, I wish I do have Intensive MT. I know, right? I'm mental.

I'm pretty sure my hatred for FNN is a given, and everyone I know knows it. Right? *looks at "Someone"*

I just dislike FNN. No, actually I don't dislike the whole FNN thing, just the whole coursework part which happened to be 60% of our grade, so even if I do well for my theory, I still fail... if I don't do my coursework that is.

Wait, stop! I'm not going to type 1 post dedicated solely to FNN - my hated subject.

Let's see, nothing interesting happened to my life so nothing to type about my life. I never thought about what kind of thing do I want to post before I started this. So pretty much, this is totally not called for, didn't plan it whatsoever. So never mind, let's get back to ranting about FNN.

I'm in Computer Lab 1 now, unfortunately there's only 3 FNN students from my level so we're like behind all the students being good, doing our coursework. (: I'm good okay?

The teacher is showing the 2n2 students the movie, Alvin and the Chipmunks, the one I wasn't able to catch in the Cinemas, the one that slipped my mind after some time. I can't concentrate on my coursework because my head automatically turns towards the screen and my eyes immediately focuses on the movie being showed.

It's alright though, since I have 6 more hours in the coming days. ):

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UPDATE/EDIT:

Yuki, my 7 years(been with me duration) turtle died last night/yesterday.

I think I'm in denial to not cry about that turtle who's been with me through all my hard times.

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That's the way I roll.. for now ;)

85 words

Speedtest

Steven lim

5 minutes ago, I was reading a stomp thread about this guy getting pawned by the other one because of some conflict.. blah blah..

And around the final pages, someone mentioned steven lim and even posted his web link there, including a quote from his website.

Since I was curious, mainly bored, so I clicked the link and visited the site. Not that I'm supporting him because, ew, he ruined my eyes because of his audition in Singapore Idol. I was watching Singapore Idol Audition because a friend's sister auditioned and of course, I want to see if she'll be on tv, unfortunately no. Anyway, I was watching the auditions and then in came him! He started singing and ALSO started stripping! Like, what the hell? Seriously, a desperado for attention only. However, I suppose he was smart enough to do that on Local TV because I'm pretty sure all he wanted was attention from the world. Unfortunately, he's mental to think he'd get good attention. Too thick skinned as well. Like who calls themselves the "most handsome guy in the worl"? He is in serious need of a psychiatrist before he drowns himself in his self-praises. Then again, that wouldn't be that bad, I mean, once his drowned .... well, we're free. Aren't we?

Right I've gone a little off my point here.

Anyway, as I was looking at his site, because I was CURIOUS AND BORED, I saw two pictures of him with quotes that made me puke like there's no tomorrow.

Good things must share!

That is not, I repeat, IS NOT good things that have to be shared! In fact, these are the things that had to be burned! AH! MY EYES!

Looking at the title of his website, "Welcome to The World's Most Handsome Guy Official Fan Web", it made me puke even more. I could see my breakfast splash to the ground, and I ate breakfast yesterday!

Seriously, in what way is those two picture.... nice looking? and nice looking is already a nice word to use. He looks so grotesquely deformed with the hairstyle and that skinny frame.

Yes I know i'm nowhere near the pretty side either, but at least I don't go saying that I'm the prettiest girl alive right? Seriously, if i started saying that, my brain have just been meddled with by the aliens that took Steven lim's brain.

Since when did skinny bodies and weird nerdy hairstyle become popular? He look like a 'manorexic' (anorexic man). I can't believe he even dared to pose for photos with a lame boxer. If he wanted to look more 'man' then he should have gone and wore a more neat looking boxer than one that is usually bought from 'pasar malams'.

Even my dog looks cuter than him! Yes, I actually have the evil guts inside me to compare him to an animal, an animal that has a higher calibre than him. I had to say the truth, right?

Not forgetting this phrase from his web:

Sincerely looking for a girlfriend, no matter you are black, white or
orange. As long you r pretty, nice, faithful n gorgeous & RICH.
Dun hesitate to adopt me. Application to be my girlfriend/stead now open! Whilst
stock last!

Now don't get me started on this................ Wait, I will!

Not only is he thick-skinned but he is also shallow. Typing "no matter you are black, white or orange" does not mean he is not the least bit superficial because he totally contradicts himself. The girl has to be pretty and gorgeous? Aren't those two almost the same meaning? Asking a girl to be pretty and gorgeous and RICH? I think he's beyond repair, he have absolutely lost it. If a girl that is pretty and gorgeous and rich dates him, I can only conjure two things from it.

1) The girl is blind, definitely lost her eyesight, and hopefully she never regains them if they both get married or she might get a heart attack.

2) The girl was drugged.

I know, right? Well, I could conjure more but I had to spare him at some point right? Or else, i'm no better than the grim reaper. Easily delivering people to their graves.

I'm pretty sure I can go on but I think I'll stop here before I vomit AGAIN.



(: I'm still a nice person, alright.

School

My results for my MYE was terrible. Really really terrible. So terrible that it makes the ground tremble! (It was the first thing that came to my mind)

Anyway, I failed most of my subjects! The only paper I actually passed was English and even the grade isn't good enough to fulfil my dream this year. C5.

I aimed to get A1 for most of my subjects this year, not aiming to be the top student among Singapore but just a top student in my school. However, with all these results I'm getting that aim is impossible to reach.

Though my results were terribly awful, I was still proud of one paper. That would be Paper 1; English; Section 1; Free Writing Composition.The question I chose, honesty. I got 20/30, that would be the first again in all these 3 years I've been in Swiss Cottage (Sec 3 to Sec 5).

I would love to type it out here but I've yet to keep the paper, the teacher needed to do a marker's report. So definitely, I would type it out here when I get the paper for you all to read. (:

Only that made me proud of myself, the rest made me think I'm just a loser which maybe is a little true but who really would tell me, eh?

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I bought a Drawing Pad recently, though I'm an FNN student and not an ART student, and I started drawing on it. Like duh? Who writes stories on drawing pads?

I have 4 picture to share, and here they are. (:

All definitely drawn by me, and only me. It's not perfect but I love to gaze upon these drawings of mine. First time in my life, I actually drew something that I absolutely adore.

I found money!

I found money on the ground and being the good person that I am, I gave it to the station people - the ones working in the MRT(Bukit Gombak).



Some of you probably are thinking that it was dumb of me to do that, but I can't help it, I just like to do good deeds. (:



Curious about the amount of money it was? REALLY CURIOUS?

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It was 1K!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I know!! Probably most of you are already thinking that I was dumb to return it right?? But I beg to differ!



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Pity isn't it? To return such a large amount of money. Well, I have a picture of it that I got from the web, to mourn over such loss.

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Saddening isn't it?

HAHA!
Initially, I wanted to keep it. Fazlyn said it cost at least $1, if I change it to singapore currency. However, there was this lady who kept staring at us, as I pick the note up from the ground. She stared at us with such cold greedy eyes. I think she wanted the note too, probably thinking it's 1000, not really seeing what currency it is.

So I went down with Fazlyn, with the intention of giving it to the station staff, so I ended up doing just that!

The guy - he was in charge at that time - was chuckling when I gave him the note, saying someone dropped it.

YOU KNOW WHAT HIS REPLY WAS?

Staff: You sure you don't want to keep? It cost no more than 5 cent at least. *laughs*
Me&Fazlyn(both surprised): REALLY??
Staff: Yes *laughs*
Me: I thought it cost at least a dollar.
Staff: One singapore dollar is at least 6000 rupiah.

Fazlyn and I left them afterwards laughing and joking with each other.

I can't remember who said who already, it was all blurred out after because we laughed all the way up the stairs and back to the platform.

Fazlyn: So it's like we're returning them a 5cent coin! *does silly actions*
Me: Ya, like what's the point right? "Here, someone dropped their 5 cent, I'm giving it to you"

It's a little stupid right to return a 5 cent coin? I mean, come on, let's not bull shit around and say it's still a good deed. How many can a 5 cent coin buy, at this time of life? Like, maybe 1.... or half a something.

Anyway, hey, at least we returned a "1000" note worth of money(rupiah). That's considered as still good right?

Uh, I'm not doing good things just for the sake of it, I just like it. (:

Totally mixed post

First off, I'll start it with a
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY
wish to FazlynY

Remember I posted about her birthday? Well, I'm going to details about it.

Like I said, it was a small party....

Hence there were only what 6 people present there, including the birthday girl. There would have been 7, if the other came, but she had something on, so understood.

We didn't have much food and drinks, in fact, we lack the drinks for the 6 people. There were only 4 cans of drinks and 6 people were present! All cans were bought based on the love(drinks) of each person. So tell me, how? I'm not too sure about that, but I think everyone just drank their own or shared one or two. Definitely no one shared mine, because I love to drink Sprite, not much in my group likes to drink it. Sprite is the best luh and all those who agree with me, comment! Click that small "comment" link at the bottom of the post. (:

I manged to actually snap a candid shot of the birthday girl drinking! I know what you're thinking, why is she so excited about snapping a photo of a person drinking? How utterly lame. BORING. NEXT! But you see, this was the only picture I took because I don't know what the heck happened to my so called "photographer" life.

Right then, now, to go to even smaller details of this party.

I was the organizer of this party, meaning, I invited all and asked all about it. Reena, Fa'izah, Jasmine, Juani helped make this a possibility. Reena and Fa'izah bought the cake(I think, if I'm wrong correct me, because I think my memory fails me) and I ate it! Well, not only me, they ate the cake too, and left a piece for Nusriin.

I know it's politically incorrect for me to say this but the party was dull - lifeless. Fazlyn knows this already, but I still hope she pardon me for blogging about it.

I suppose everyone still had a little bit of that exam fever(the bad fever) and thus, un-enthusiastic about the whole thing. Frankly, that's what I think, my opinion.

However, the good thing about it is that I suppose, in one way or another, we had fun. The ghost stories, the cake, the birthday song singing, and the shifting to another hut because two men came over requesting our "dance off" continue. Like, who would continue? Maybe you but not Fazlyn and certainly not me.

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Okay, this is what I've just thought.

You see, Fat people are lucky that they are fat. Though there are that numerous amount of downsides.

I'll state my facts as to why fat people should consider themselves lucky.

• No one will stalk them

I watch shows - because i'm such a drama addict - that has stalkers stalking the pretty actresses and maybe actors. These pretty actresses, or actors, are usually slender, shaped like an hour glass - slim.

Now how about those not so appealing in looks ones? They don't get stalked! However, they do have pretty best friends, these best friends would then turn to their "un-appealing" friends for advice.

See! Fat people don't get stalkers, but instead they get beautiful people as friends! Is that bad? Not so, right?

• Fat people have a lesser risk of getting raped

I don't really see much of newspaper articles being about fat people who got raped in an alley, or fat people getting rape in their home. No right? What I see is this beautiful 18 year old daughter, probably slim because that's what I conjure out of the picture given, getting locked up in a dungeon and getting raped over and over by her demonic father, who apparently thinks he should be given credit for keeping her alive. See the famous Xiaxue's blog for this.

• Fat people are harder to kidnap

I just thought about this one.

But it's true isn't it? Kidnappers have to kidnap someone swiftly, so no one can be the witness but imagine having to kidnap someone fat. Gosh, I think even if they were able to kidnap the person quickly, they'd still get caught easily by the police because their vehicle would look lopsided - one up and one down - from the outside and the fastest speed of the vehicle would be 10km/hour.

• Fat people still can wear all sorts of clothes

Haven't you seen shops that put up signs that goes,

"Sizes from S to XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXL"

So what makes you think, fat people's closet is limited? Pff, You're so wrong!

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See, this is why I'm proud that I'm ff....ffffff...............fffffff...........fffffffffffffffff........

Okay, I can't say/type it.

So i'll type this instead,

I'm thin, nnnnn........nnnnnnnnn............nnnnnnnnnnn...............oooo....

ugh! I can't do either!

Forget it, my body structure is like an alien, it's wiggly and jelly-like.

P/S I'm not thin, neither am I 456123 pounds. What's my weight? (:

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Right, not forgetting to mention, I have another dog in my house.

Name: FHUENDYHSS(I've no idea how to spell it) Pronounced as Island(without the d)
Age: 3 YEARS OLD
Breed: Jack Russell Terrier
Gender: Female

Reason as to why I don't know, is because this family gave it to us because they admitted to not having time to take care of it.

WAIT! Not forgetting DADA
NAME: DA DA
AGE: 4 YEARS OLD
BIRTHDAY: 10 MAY 2004 (BELATED BIRTHDAY DADA!)
BREED: JACK RUSSELL TERRIER
GENDER: MALE

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Okay, I have a problem.
My Dada wants to bite Islan all the time, is it possible for them to get along? Do they just need time? HOW TO MAKE THEM GET ALONG?

Fazlyn's birthday celebration

It's Fazlyn's birthday on mother's day, May 11, and of course, I'm pretty sure we can't really go out on that day because it's mother's day. We'd be at home, resting our behinds on the couch as we wait for our parents to come back, so that we'd be able to go out and have dinner together. YIPPEE! Sounds like fun right?

Anyway, we -Elora(me!), Reena, Fa'izah, Jasmine, Juani - celebrated an advance 'Fazlyn birthday party'. She, Fazlyn, totally have no clue about it. See how good an actress I am! Hollywood! You don't know what you're missing.

It was a simple celebration. Not as extravagant as Fa'izah's surprise party but still it's a party. Better have one, than none at all, right? Next stop, Jasmine's birthday.

I'm not really going into details about what happened during the party. Too bad you weren't invited, VIP personals only. Except Nusriin, since she had something on. She's excuse. EXCEPT FOR YOU GUYS. NANANANA~ I bet if Shirley reads this, she's going.. "lame"

I'm already broke, you know. I managed to save $60 and it's already been reduced to a measly $4. On sunday, is Mother's day. What am I suppose to do then eh?

Well, I probably would buy a slice of cake, since there's not enough ingredients to bake my cookie cakes*!



Cookie cakes = Cakes that turned out to be as hard as a cookie.

I hate myself

I actually did something to myself that is totally making me detest myself.

Something that I terribly dislike and yet I did it to myself!

An incident happened last night.

I cried too much and for too long.

After a while, I just got drowned in my sorrow.

Mink's birthday again.

Mink’s birthday!

I had my chemistry exam at the start of the day, and boy, I know I’m destined to fail my MYE this year. Most of the questions are only 1 marks, and those I know how to answer are – unfortunately – one mark ones.

Ah, enough about that. Though it’s only one short paragraph, eh.

I met Daniel today, a friend of Shirley and Mink’s, and met Mink afterwards.

Okay, before I go on, I must say something first.

If Mink appeared before us earlier, she probably would have seen Shirley also. SEE MINK, next time must come on time, you wouldn’t know what you might miss.

And ... back to my story. Right.

Since Shirley had something on, she had to leave first.

We ended up in Mink’s house. Mink played Audition, for a while, then me, for some time, while Daniel played on his PSP.

Blah blah blah, story cut short.

It was fun, and well interesting.

Watched this video about a girl that had done intercourses 300 times and she’s only 15 years old. I’m turning 17 this year and not once have I had sex! I don’t know whether to be elated by that information or to feel shameful that someone young have beaten me to it. Okay, I know... I’m super elated by that information. I don’t know about others, but I’m damn happy to be a virgin. HAH!

Okay, I turned to blogging for one reason, I wanted to rant about something embarrassing that happened to me.

I don’t think anyone realized and let’s keep it that way.

I went to Mink’s house right? Guess what? When we went to the living room, because mink was going to blow the candles off the cake her parents bought her, I saw myself in the mirror.

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No, not because I got scared off by my looks

BUT, because I saw that the zipper of my shorts was open! Tell me about that, right!

I tried to zip it up, and guess what? It’s freaking spoilt! Ugh!
So I asked mink for scissors so that I can manually fix it, but she said she didn’t have one. Eek! The horror now begins.

As I sat on her bed, thinking about how to get home without people looking at me holding my shorts or just plain staring at me for my ignorance – they think I purposely left it that way, or maybe. I took the opportunity and started opening her drawers, and I managed to find a solution to my humiliating situation.

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I love the guy that created the safety pins! Thanks.... YOU! (:

Mink

Happy birthday to MINK!

You're 17 already! (:
Super way ahead of me and shirley.

Enjoy your bright day today!! (:

Emo-Weepo

Unanswered calls, tears welling up in eyes.
I think today might be like last night.

I'm giving up already.

Sleepover

The word that gives you the opportunity to enjoy the whole night.

Mink and Shirley came over to my house, slept there and slacked there - well somewhat like that.

It was really fun. Getting together after all these years, It's really great to have friends you know since young. Then again, the greatest thing about friends is them being there for you whenever they can - they're the ones that stays forever.

My whole weekend was booked by them. We went to sun plaza only, though Mink craved for KBOX.

She thought of a business opportunity, you know.
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Words are definitely re-phrased. Pardon it, my memory is poor when it comes to recalling the exact words. UNLESS, it's really really special - sincere confessions and such.

Mink: We open our own Kbox here in Sembawang lah.
Shirley: SMLK
Mink: Yea, call it SMLK
Elora - thinking - : Shirley Mink Lala Karaoke?
Shirley: Si mi lai kay (I THINK, I FORGOT. CORRECT ME IF I'M WRONG)
- laughters & things i really forgot -
Mink: Can have lounge for people to sing in, let everyone hear and also rooms for those private ones. Can earn a lot of money! $10 an hour.
Shirley: Like that, we're suffering a loss leh. -she's the one in accountancy course now, her words are like gold when it comes to business-
Mink: Then $15 (OR I DON'T KNOW, $20) an hour lah.

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Actually got much more, but if i tell everything, then in the future we cannot open such a business right? See, got confidential bits.

Anyway, long story cut short, my weekend was hell lot of fun. Heck, I might do it again! When we're all free and when my mother finally allows me to sleepover at others. Really, I want to experience sleeping over at other people's houses! Can be a guest!

I have a dog!

I tried updating before but apparently, it didn't work out so well. So cross your fingers and hope this get updated, if not, you'll see me hanging from through my doorknob and you know i'm not really floating.



I have a dog! The name's DaDa. Yes, a little retarted but it's darn cute to me. The way he is darn cute to me. Whoever it is, he gets so excited and start jumping on the person he sees.



Imagine it



A robber comes to your house, and instead of him protecting the house, he starts jumping on him like he was humping him.



Talk about a dog being a good guard, and i'll punch you.



He is more like a companion, a brother, than a guard. So I'll leave it at that.



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I took 4 pictures of him, all not successful in portraying his awesome cuteness. Therefore, i'm only posting 2 of him. His cuteness must be saved from all humanity or else it'll run out. Rubbish, really.

Cuteness right?

Dada gets super hyper after waking up, so imagine the trouble we'll have to go through to make him sleep again after we just move him to his "room". He's new, so need to teach him here and there.

He's cute!

Promises

I terribly dislike it when one says this but do the other. Isn't it so infuriating?

Imagine this scenario,

Your prom starts tomorrow, you've told all your friends you have a dress ready so you don't have to buy for it anymore, so they don't worry.

Apparently, the dress you thought you'll have wasn't bought. The person actually promised you that she'll buy a dress for you, so you trust her whole-heartedly and not worry about you still not having anything to wear even on the last day.

Imagine that, isn't it infuriating?

Well, if it isn't to you, it is to me. If you're thinking it's just me being terribly petty and unreasonable, then think what you want.

Honestly, i'm incensed right now because I could have gone for a jog earlier but no my parents said that they'll go jogging with me, so it means I'll wait for them to come back. They did come back but shortly after ,they decide to go to the bank, and they still said they'll jog after they come back.

Guess what?

My mother chose not to because she's tired, i understand. I asked my father, and what? He wanted to watch this damn show first, so i probed again, to see if i can go jogging with him after. Apparently, i'm just bad-timing today because my mother answered me when i asked my father the second question. She said, "I have driving lesson early tomorrow, that's why."

God damn it! Why didn't you say so when you knew already! Why couldn't they let me down then already, before they went to the bank, so that I can still run. It was 8pm then. Now, it's already 20 min to 10pm. You think i'll still dare to go down and run by that track? When it's all dark and creepy? ALONE? Like hell i will!

I understand that we'll be off early tomorrow, yes i do. I just dislike the fact that my father won't fucking answer me properly. Why not straight away say, "I'm tired luh, i don't want to jog okay?" or "Tomorrow must wake up early, so don't want already". UGH!

I may sound petty right now, and probably unreasonable, but I cannot help it. I don't like being led on! I am a straight-forward person, so don't delay and just drop that bomb of an answer on me.

I haven't gone jogging for some time now because of the exam period, so in me, there's this blend of feelings - disappointment and anger.

I'm getting fatter by the minute!

I think I weigh 999 kg now! Worse than that 200 pounds beauty girl. If i sat on a human being, it'll immediately fall to the ground, crushed with all of its guts coming out of it's mouth and anus, and the only thing i'll be able to say as an apology is, "oops".

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Right, another promise made to me by my mother this time.

We're going to SPCA tomorrow to adopt a dog, if possible.

I'm already doubting this, but i bet tomorrow i'll be disappointed. Hopefully it'll be the opposite, but i'm not putting much hope into it. Though i know i will be terribly disappointed.